Lusting for peace in my own sick messed up way...

"please please please
no apologies
at best they buy you time,
til' you next step out of line
please please please
no more remedies
my method is uncertain,
it's a mess but it's workin'
and maybe if you tried it out
you won't like it
when you're cryin' out
give us something familiar
something similar to what we know already
that will keep us steady,
steady, steady...steady goin' nowhere"

i got no words to describe how im feeling but in my own sick messy complicated way im really happy .thats what counts ,right?i know my mind ,body and heart are in the right place im on my way ..to where i wanna be ,my weaknesses ,i like to surrender to my weaknesses ...and i dont consider that a weakness in any possible way